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The stone which the builders rejected has become the chief cornerstone.
--Psalms 118:22
Jesus did nothing but good and spoke nothing but the truth, yet the corrupt status quo, both political and religious, rejected Jesus, even going so far as to torture him with the whip and murder him on the cross.
Yet somehow in death, he was more powerful than they were in life. For the Roman Empire is long gone, and all that remains of it is crumbling ruins. And while Judaism numbers about 16 million adherents, it is dwarfed by the 2,380 million who follow Jesus today, even 2000 years after his death.
The stone that the builders rejected has become the chief cornerstone, as the Psalmist foretold.
-- Phil Jones

I am the Lord your God, Who has brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. You shall have no other God before me . . . I the Lord your God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me.
-- Exodus 20:3, 5

God has brought me out of my own personal bondage, when I was a slave to sinful anger and pride, and guilt and shame, and fear and self-hatred. I have no other Gods, yet I often do not obey Him, in matters both small and large, even though He saved my life. I put my personal pleasure and vanity ahead of spending time in prayer and study and companionship with Him, and ahead of the work He has given me to do, pleasant though it is. I still live as if I have forever, when in fact my days, and all our days, are numbered. Only God knows what that number is.
If I died tomorrow, I would not want to leave any important thing undone or unsaid. And so I will say the following.
There are those in the link. who worship a man who is very much the opposite of Jesus Christ. Where Jesus is pure truth, this man is pure lies. Where Jesus is love, this man is hate. Where Jesus is the Prince of Peace, this man is a bringer of deadly strife, by means of his lies. Where Jesus led us all into freedom and justice for God's sake and our own, this man leads to oppression and cruelty for his own benefit. Personal loyalty to this man, rather than to Jesus Christ, will plunge the whole world into deep darkness, not only for the rest of his life, but for generations to come.
I say this in love, because I do not want my fellow Americans to perish, nor to condemn their own children and mine to a hell on earth.
-- Phil Jones
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Better is a poor man who walks in his integrity than a rich man who is perverse in his speech . . . A false witness shall not be unpunished, and he who breathes out lies shall not escape . . . A false witness shall not be unpunished, and he who breathes forth lies shall perish.
-- King Solomon (Proverbs 19:1,5,9)
Do you know a rich man who is perverse in his speech?
I think we all do. And I think most of us know that he breathes out lies. Unfortunately, that even includes quite a few who continue to support him all the same.
Continue supporting him if you want to, but God's warning in Proverbs 19 is crystal clear. He will perish. And the more you enable him, the more his fate becomes your fate.
Rarely does the Bible come back and reiterate itself, word for word, just a few verses apart, but Proverbs 19:5 and 19:9 are almost exactly the same. The emphasis could not be clearer if it were written in bold letters and all caps.
This man is not on the side of God. He only pretends to be.
By contrast, Jesus was a poor man who walked in integrity. Which one will you follow, obey, and support? No man or woman can serve two masters.
I say this in love, because I do not want you to perish.
--Phil Jones
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Millions of self-proclaimed Christians are mouthing the Big Lie that the 2020 election was somehow stolen through voter fraud. This is a coldly calculated betrayal of Jesus Christ, who is The Truth.
The truth is, there was an attempt to steal the election. The former President attempted to steal it, using the Big Lie, counting on the fear and anger that lie aroused, to inspire violence. It was and is a Satanic agenda.
Now that so many people have bought into the Big Lie, America is permanently divided. Regardless who wins the 2024 election, massive civil unrest is certain to follow, up to and possibly including civil war.
I say these things, not to frighten you, but because the love of Jesus Christ will not allow me to remain silent when your safety and well-being are at stake. Too many do not see the danger looming in the near future. Look to the safety of your family and your well-chosen friends.

God bless and keep you,
Phil Jones
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When your panic comes as a storm and desolation, and your calamity comes on as a whirlwind, when distress and anguish come upon you, then they will call upon me, but I will not answer. They will seek me early and diligently, but they will not find me, because they have hated wisdom. -- King Solomon (Proverbs 1:27-29)
The darkness is descending.
It'll be a long time before the dawn.
The horrors will seem never-ending,
And you may wonder where I've gone,
But I have not abandoned you.
You have abandoned me,
And I still love you, but you don't love me.
No, you don't love me.
-- Phil Jones

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Peace and blessings,
Phil and Debi

So far
You've brought us safely on this journey
So far,
And though the goal that lies ahead is
So far,
We've come so far, it's too late to turn back now.
So far,
You've never failed to keep your promise
So far,
And life just keeps on getting sweeter
So far,
We've come so far, from where we started out.
"Now the Lord said to Abram, 'Go for your own advantage away from your country, from your relatives and your father's house, to the land that I will show you.' " (Gen 12:1)
Due to the insane and rapidly deteriorating conditions in the link., my wife and I began searching for a new home several years ago. We made numerous vacation trips to destinations both inside and outside the country that has been our home all our lives. Last spring, we stumbled into a little town in a foreign country, that felt like home, and experienced a series of God-touched moments that made us feel that this could be the place we were looking for.
We committed the decision to God prayerfully, asking to be shown by closed doors if this was not the right move, within His will. Nearly a year went by before we finally put our house on the market.
Through wonderful Christian friends, we found a truly excellent realtor, and waited and prayed for the right buyer, at the right price, in the Lord's time. And waited. And waited.
Honestly, if the house had sold too soon, we would not have been ready to go, and I think my wife would have felt pushed out of her home of 36 years. It was not until she became frustrated and anxious that the right buyer came along.
And what an ideal buyer! In addition to a generous offer, they also took the lion's share of the expense and risk out of the process for us, gave us plenty of time to move out after closing (and said we could have had more if we had asked), bought some of our big, hard-to-move items from us, and told us not to worry about leaving the place in pristine condition (although we left it professionally cleaned, as a courtesy).
God's permission was clearly ours, but what followed really blew us away, and showed us that God was not only OK with the move, but was blessing and anointing us in it. An outpouring of heartfelt love and appreciation from friends and the formal blessing of our church family. Prophecy from a spirit-filled friend and healer. An intricate dance in which our furniture and special belongings found good homes with friends and family and neighbors near and far. An intricate travel plan including hotels, airplanes, and 8 pieces of luggage, that went off seamlessly. A wonderful buy on a low-mileage, well-maintained used car, at a favorable price, when we really needed one and had only two days to find it. And finally, a temporary home with a generous and thoughtful friend who knows our new country much better than we do.
All in all, about 50 more reasons to love and thank the Living God. We are gradually settling in now, in the beautiful place God pointed out to us, and ready for the unfolding of this amazing new chapter in our lives.

So Far

Chapter I. The Fall from Grace

My name is Philip Eric Jones, and I am living proof that God is real, answers prayers, and has healing power.

On June 19, 1976, I was admitted to Ben Taub Hospital in Houston, Texas, diagnosed as psychotic. Psychosis is a life-threatening mental illness, for which medical science has no cure. Very few psychotics recover to live any semblance of a normal life. But I did. I trace my recovery to the day I discovered that there is a living God, who hears and answers prayers.

Before being hospitalized, I had graduated from the University of Texas at Austin, with highest honors, Phi Beta Kappa, and with special honors in my major field -- psychology, ironically enough. I had (and I assume I still have) a Mensa-level IQ. Unfortunately, I was also a drug abuser, and had unhealthy relationships with both my parents.

Where God was concerned, I was agnostic. There might be a God, but I was skeptical. I was unconvinced by the philosophical proofs of God's existence, and had neither seen, heard, nor felt any convincing evidence of God's existence in my life. I could readily see how the concept of God functioned as a useful myth, which served to keep simple-minded people honest. However, I saw no more reason to believe in the actual existence of a God than to believe in Santa Claus. And based in part on my experience with Santa Claus, I was not willing to blindly believe in God.

I was an earnest seeker, however. Raised in the Methodist church, and encouraged by my parents to think, doubt, and question, I had visited numerous churches in my teen years, seeking a place where my questions could be answered. I found only that I thought about these things much more deeply than anyone else in the little town where I grew up. In my college years, I continued to explore, keeping an open mind, and finding a little here and a little there, but nothing that settled the question.

Landing in the hospital changed everything in my life. Up until I was hospitalized for psychosis and declared officially insane, as far as I could tell, I was on track to be President of the United States. The undeniable fact of my illness, however, woke me up to the fact that I was far off track. It left me questioning even the most basic thoughts and perceptions of my mind. I had to fundamentally re-examine everything, and my own mind was my worst enemy. Since medical science had no cure, it was basically up to me to recover, yet I could not trust myself. No one can pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, yet that was my task. Either that, or resign myself to a long life in the living hell I found myself in. Or commit suicide -- an option I soon tried.

After a short time in the hospital, I was released to outpatient care -- which meant I had to visit a psychiatrist once a week -- and I went home to live with my parents. Their home was a toxic environment for me, but I had no realistic alternative, until I found a job -- not an easy undertaking for a mental patient.

Searching for bedrock on which to rebuild my mind, I turned to the Bible. It only confused me further, as I watched God stand by and let Jacob's theft of Esau's birthright stand, and apparently go not only unpunished, but actually rewarded – or so it seemed to me at the time.

After a few weeks in my parents' home, working a series of temporary jobs as a farm hand, I decided to end my life. Late one night, I left a brief note, took a very sharp-looking knife from the kitchen, and went out the back door. My parents' house was in the country, reachable only by a dirt road that ran a quarter of a mile to the nearest paved road. The night was hot and humid, and deathly still. There wasn't the slightest breeze. The air was like a warm blanket on a hot night -- unwelcome, oppressive, and inescapable. I walked down the dirt road, dressed only in my underwear. The dog came with me.

I sat down on a low wall over a drainage ditch. I looked up at the formless clouds that covered the entire sky, and asked any God that might exist to have mercy on me. I received no reassurance. Then with my right hand, I dragged the knife across my left wrist.

Nothing happened. No cut, not even a scratch. I tried again, two or three times, before I realized that the knife that looked so sharp was scarcely sharper than a butter knife. If I really wanted to kill myself, I would have to bash my wrists with the point of the knife. I was so depressed, I didn't have the energy for that, nor was I sure that I could burst the vein, or accomplish anything other than mangling my wrist. I didn't hate myself enough to try ending my life that way. So I gave up the attempt.

I was a failure at suicide. What an odd feeling that was. As I walked back up the dirt road toward the house, I realized that if I had succeeded in killing myself, it might not have solved my problem. In fact, for all I knew, I might have simply locked myself into the problem forever. I made some crucial decisions then. I decided that I never wanted to be tempted to suicide again, and therefore I would embrace life and all that is life-giving. This is probably the best decision I ever made in my life. Most people make this decision naturally and subconsciously. It doesn't occur to them to live any other way. I made this decision consciously and deliberately, after deliberately throwing my life away for 20 years.

I started naming off in my mind all the things that are life-giving -- laughter, song, beauty, friends, children, and most of all, love. I considered love to be the most life-giving thing there is, and the more I thought about it, the more convinced of this I became.

Not long after this, at the urging of my psychiatrist, I found a job. I had worked my way through college as a clerk in a bank in downtown Houston. In my condition, with a history of mental illness, and a bachelor's degree that qualified me for little other than graduate school, I decided to see if I could get my old job back. Fortunately, I was well remembered by the managers and they were indeed hiring. I lied on the job application, saying I had no history of mental illness. Sue me. I was hired.

I immediately moved out of my parents' house. Although I was moving in a better direction now, I was still extremely fragile and very depressed. I was still abusing drugs, and most of the issues that had led to my psychosis were still unresolved.

One lonely night, I called an old girlfriend named Cindy. She was not home. Her mother answered the phone. I had met her mother only once, briefly. We barely knew each other. To this day I don't even know her first name. I know only that in the autumn of 1976, she was Mrs. Stuart Robbins of Conroe, Texas.

The conversation was friendly and low-key. Mrs. Robbins advised me to forget about Cindy, and move on with my life. Then the conversation turned to God, I don't recall how. But Mrs. Robbins was respectful of my feelings, and thought perhaps I would be uncomfortable talking about that topic. I said cheerfully, "I don't mind talking about religion."

She said, "I'm not talking about religion. I'm talking about a relationship."

I said something really intelligent, like, "Huh? A relationship?"

Mrs. Robbins patiently explained that since God is alive, anyone can have a relationship with God, just as one can have a relationship with a friend, or a pet, or a houseplant. You have a relationship with a friend by talking and doing things together. With a pet, by feeding, petting, and so on. With a houseplant by providing the right amount of sunlight and water, watching carefully for signs of health, and enjoying the beauty and enriched breathing air the plant provides. And you can have a relationship with God through prayer. She suggested that if I wanted to know whether God exists or not, I should just pray, and ask "Him" to manifest "Himself." (I use the masculine pronouns to refer to God, not because I believe God is male, but because this is standard English usage for a noun of undetermined gender, and because it is the traditional usage of the Bible.)

This was a totally novel idea to me, and I decided to give it a try. If there was a God, I could certainly use "His" help. And if there was an answer to my prayers, then God must not only exist, but live, and care.

Chapter II. The Great Experiment

Numerous problems presented themselves. If I prayed for something, and it came to pass, how could I know whether it was God answering my prayer, or whether it was caused by something else? Well, fortunately, I had been trained in exactly this type of critical thinking in college, and I was very good at it. I knew how to design research methods so as to eliminate what scientists call "confounding variables."

On the other hand, if I prayed for something, and it didn't come to pass, did that necessarily mean God was not answering my prayers? Or could it mean that the answer was simply, "No"? I concluded that a non-answered prayer would not be conclusive proof in either direction. But an answered prayer would be conclusive proof of God's existence and love.

The proposition that "God answers prayer" is a testable hypothesis. I wanted to avoid the "alpha error" of believing God exists when "He" doesn't. If I put my trust in a non-existent God, I would end up taking risks that might prove foolish or even fatal. But I also wanted to avoid the "beta error" of concluding that God does not exist when in reality "He" does. If I made that mistake, I would miss out on a tremendous resource, at the very least. So I applied all my intelligence, all my university training, and all my intellectual honesty, to the task of determining whether anyone was answering my prayers.

The first question was what to pray for. I prayed for an angel to appear on the ceiling, for an audible voice, for objects in the room to be moved from one place to another. None of this happened. This did not prove God's non-existence, of course, but it led to the all-important question, "Why didn't God answer that prayer?" Which led to the further question, "Why should "He"?"

If God exists, then God surely has more important things to do than simply prove "His" existence to me. So there is no particular reason God should answer the kinds of prayers I had been praying.

In fact, God may perhaps prefer not to prove "Himself" at all, but instead to leave a gap that can be bridged only by faith. Like a Cossack leaping over a chasm (anybody seen "Taurus Bulba"?), the question becomes, just how wide a gap does God expect me to jump? I had no way of knowing, but reasoned that if God knows my mind well enough to hear my prayers -- which I did not speak out loud -- then surely God knew the gap would have to be a lot narrower, for me to get across it without plunging to my death! At the same time, if God is a God of Truth, then "He" must not object to my trying my best to narrow the gap by inquiring as scientifically as possible. In fact, "He" must welcome and honor my earnest desire to know. And "He" would not hide from me, except as necessary to ensure faith. (Jesus said, “Seek, and ye shall find.”) Thus, my inquiries might never "prove" anything. The best I could expect would be to reduce the uncertainty.

But that's fine! Science is not about proving anything. It is about reducing uncertainty. Science seeks to establish heavy odds that the tested hypothesis is true. In experimental psychology, if the odds can be ascertained to be 19 to 1 in favor of a conclusion, then that conclusion is considered true, even though there is still a 5 percent chance it is false.

If I were asking God for idle proofs of "His" existence, there was no reason to think that any would be forthcoming. But what kind of prayer could God wish to answer? If God is love -- as nearly everyone says -- then a prayer motivated by love would be consistent with God's will and nature. And if God answered a prayer motivated by love, there would be the added attraction of a benefit to someone I care for, in addition to myself. In fact, if the prayer were not motivated by love, there would be no reason why God should answer it. If the prayer was motivated by love, there was at least a chance.

So my first criterion for testing the hypothesis that God exists is:

(1) Pray for something that would be of benefit to someone besides myself.

In order to eliminate confounding variables, two other criteria presented themselves pretty obviously:

(2) Pray for something that, in my judgement, is unlikely to happen in the normal course of events.

If I pray for something I consider likely to happen on its own, and the thing comes to pass, would I consider it an answered prayer? Not if I have any intellectual honesty at all! Instead, I would say it was going to happen anyway. But if I considered it unlikely to happen, and it came to pass after I prayed for it, would it prove that God had answered my prayer? No, but it would substantially increase the likelihood. It would be strong evidence.

(3) Pray for something that is not within my control.

If I can do something myself, why pray for God to do it? In the first place, if God exists, "He" is certainly not my valet, or someone for me to send to do the things I am not willing to do for myself. If we extend this logic, then I should do everything I can do, to influence matters toward the accomplishment of that for which I pray. Otherwise I am asking God to do something that I can do myself. It is vanity at best, and sin at worst, to pray for God to do something, then neglect to do my utmost to help bring it about.

But if I can be an agent assisting God to answer prayers, then so can everybody else. In fact, as I thought about this principle in more depth, I realized that anyone who treats me in a loving way is an agent of God in my life. So if I wanted my prayers answered, I must not only do my own part, but also put others in a position to be God's agents in answering the prayer also. The God of Love answers prayers by pulling strings. Heart strings.

(This reminds me of a good story. Once there was a man whose neighborhood was flooding, due to torrential rains. As the waters rose, he moved to the second story of his house, and a woman came by in a rowboat, offering him a ride to safety. The man refused, saying that he trusted God to save him. The waters continued to rise, and the man climbed up on his roof. A speedboat came by, and the pilot offered him a ride to safety. Again he refused, for the same reason: God would save him. The waters continued to rise. The man climbed to the top of his chimney, and as the waters lapped about his shoe soles, a helicopter flew over, and the pilot lowered a ladder and shouted an offer to take the man to safety. Again he refused, for the same reason. The waters kept rising. He drowned.

If Jesus had told this story, he might have ended it right there, as a challenge for our understanding. For those of you who don't yet understand, here is the punch line: Upon reaching the Pearly Gates, the drowned man angrily demanded of St. Peter to know why God had not saved him, particularly in light of his great faith. St. Peter was taken aback, then hurriedly flipped through his book. "There must be some mistake," Peter said. "According to this, we sent a rowboat, a speedboat, and a helicopter.")

I also decided that if I wanted to give God the maximum chance of answering a prayer, I should pray in accordance with the teachings of the spiritual masters. Since the only spiritual master whose teaching I knew was Jesus, I chose his teachings to follow.

(4) Pray forgiving someone for something I am holding against them.

Jesus taught that if we want our prayers to be answered, we must forgive our brothers and sisters from our hearts. I have learned a lot about forgiveness over the years, enough to know that it rarely happens like the snap of a finger or like the flip of a switch. Far more often, it is a lengthy process. Yet the decision to forgive is the beginning of that process, and thus the decision to forgive is, in and of itself, an act of forgiveness. So I would first think of something I was angry about, and choose to forgive that, so that my prayer would have the maximum chance of being answered.

(5) Pray believing it has already been done.

Jesus taught that if we pray believing that it has already been done, it will be done for us as we ask. But for me, this presented a Catch-22. I was praying in order to discover whether God exists or not. Therefore, in all intellectual honesty, I could not say I believed it would happen as I asked, much less that it was already done. If God exists, "He" would not be fooled by any such false claim.

In all intellectual honesty, the most I could do was suspend my disbelief. If God exists, and is a God of Justice, and a God of Truth, this would have to be good enough, because it was the most I could do. And if God would answer the prayers of such a man as me, then apparently faith is not an all-or-nothing proposition after all, but a matter of giving God the benefit of the doubt.

We all know how to suspend disbelief. We do it every day, when we watch fiction on our TV or movie screen, or read a fictional story. We know rationally that the story is not really happening, and never did, and never will. But we suspend our disbelief so that we can experience fully all that the story has to say to us.

In the same way, an agnostic seeking to know the truth about God can suspend his or her disbelief, in order to see what difference it makes. Could a God of Justice and Truth ask for more?

Chapter 3: The Results

Following these 5 criteria conscientiously, I prayed. Unfortunately, I can't now remember the first thing I prayed for, nor the second, nor the third. What I do remember is that, in each instance, something odd eventually happened. In every case, it was something subtle, that would have been easy to miss had I not been watching closely, with suspended disbelief. Each time, I would ask myself, "Was that God answering my prayer?"

Examining the question carefully, I had to admit it could have been an answered prayer, but I could never say for sure that it was. It might have been a coincidence, a quirky random roll of the cosmic dice. So I would repeat the experiment, with a different prayer request this time, following the same 5 criteria.

Eventually, after about 5 of these occurences, the Coincidence explanation began to look pretty shaky. Yet although the evidence was starting to weigh in favor of the conclusion that God exists and answers prayers, still I was not convinced.

I do remember the two prayers I tried at this time, which finally put me over the top.

In late May of 1978, my then-wife Kathy was pregnant with our first child. We lived in an upstairs apartment in Austin, Texas. We had located a small house for rent, and decided to move, since we didn't want to be climbing up and down stairs with an infant. Because I was working full-time and she was staying home, most of the work of packing for the move fell to Kathy. In Texas, the summer heat usually sets in by early-to-mid May, and in 1978 it was in full swing when our central air conditioning unit broke down, on a Sunday.

Kathy had worked for the apartment complex as a manager, and knew that broken air conditioners were not the highest repair priority, by any means. I grew concerned for Kathy's health, trying to pack in that heat, while 7 months pregnant. I sent up a prayer, telling God that if "He" would get the air conditioner fixed by Wednesday, I would call "Him" Lord.

As we saw in the discussion of criterion (3) above, I was responsible for doing all I could, even though it was out of my control, and for putting others in a position to be God's agents also. So I called the office, even though it was Sunday and there was nobody there, and left a message on the answering machine, reporting the problem and mentioning that my wife was pregnant.

A short time later, that same afternoon, we got a call. It was the maintenance supervisor of the complex. He said he would be right over to take a look at the problem. When he got to our apartment, he mentioned it was his day off, and he was driving past the complex, and something just told him to stop into the office and check his messages. When he learned that there was a pregnant woman involved, he decided to act immediately.

He set about diagnosing the problem, and in a few minutes, he was certain that he knew what to do. However, he could not fix it that day, because he did not have the needed part. He said he would send his assistant over the next day, to install the replacement part.

First thing Monday morning, a young man knocked on our door. He was the assistant, and he had the part with him. In about 15 minutes' time, he had done the repair work, and the air conditioner was back in operation.

You have no idea how impressed I was. I had prayed for the air conditioner to be fixed by Wednesday, and considered that unlikely. Instead, it had been fixed in the shortest time humanly possible.

The evidence now seemed to be heavily in favor of the proposition that God does indeed answer prayers, and I was starting to really admire the God my suspended disbelief was allowing me to see. But I had lingering doubts. I still was not totally convinced.

Then came the incident that put me over the top.

My son Aaron was born in July, 1978, barely a month after we moved out of the apartment. He was the first grandchild born on either side of the family, and all the relatives wanted to come see him, including my father's parents, whom I loved very much. However, before they made the 4-hour trip to Austin from East Texas, my grandfather caught a cold, and at his advanced age (77), the cold developed into emphysema. He was hospitalized.

Since he could not come to see Aaron, we decided to take Aaron to see him. When we arrived, my grandfather was in poor condition. For long periods of time, his lungs were so filled with fluid that he would have to struggle for every breath. He constantly felt on the verge of drowning, and he grew weary of the struggle. Reports from those who had visited him indicated he was losing his will to live.

So I prayed. This time, I prayed that my son would smile at my grandfather, and my grandfather would recover the will to live.

This certainly fit the criteria. I could not control it, and it was unlikely. By this time, my son was 3 months old. In all that time, we had seen him smile only once, at the most. For Aaron to smile was a very rare event. He didn't cry much either. He was mostly a pretty placid child. (If Kathy or I had known how to make him smile, he would have smiled a great deal more by this time!)

We went to visit my grandfather at the hospital. My grandmother and my parents were with us. My grandmother carried Aaron into the room. She tipped Aaron over sideways to show him to my grandfather. Aaron didn't like being held like that, and acted as if he were about to cry. So my grandmother quickly snatched him up, and carried him over to the window to calm him. He didn't cry. There was an awkward pause, and after staying for just a few minutes, we all left.

My prayer had not been answered. As I pondered this, I realized the story was not over yet. We would be staying in town for two more nights, and there would be another opportunity to visit my grandfather.

The next day, we all visited the hospital again. Before Kathy and I had decided to make the trip to East Texas, my grandfather had complained, "By the time I get to see him, he'll be wearing a bow tie." So my wife and my grandmother conspired to make him a little black bow tie, and pinned it to his blue corduroy outfit. We all went together again, including my parents. This time, I carried Aaron into the room.

My grandfather was sitting up in his bed, which was cranked up into a sitting position. I sat on the edge of the bed, with Aaron sitting in my lap, facing my grandfather. Their eyes locked on each other, and they both started grinning immediately. My son continued to smile non-stop for 45 minutes. Everybody wanted pictures of the baby with his ancestors, so a series of pictures was taken. First with everybody, then with just the men, then with just the women, and so on. In every one of those pictures, my son is smiling a fat little baby smile.

That did it for me. I was now convinced that God answers prayers, that "He" is intimately aware of the details of our lives., and that "He" is a God of tender mercy and healing power.

Walking in a daily relationship with this God, I gradually healed from mental illness, so that now I am as sane as the average person (and I know, that’s not saying much!) I have been blessed with a succession of good jobs, getting better and better. After 19 years of cleaning me up, God put me to work in this ministry, putting my musical gifts in service to him. And he has sustained me in that work for 25 years now. My son is grown and has 3 kids of his own.

By the way, my grandfather left the hospital a short time later, and although his recovery was slow, he eventually got over his emphysema. He lived 17 more years, dying at the age of 94, from natural causes.

What God has done for me, "He" will surely do for you.

Chapter I. The Fall from Grace

My name is Philip Eric Jones, and I am living proof that God is real, answers prayers, and has healing power.

On June 19, 1976, I was admitted to Ben Taub Hospital in Houston, Texas, diagnosed as psychotic. Psychosis is a life-threatening mental illness, for which medical science has no cure. Very few psychotics recover to live any semblance of a normal life. But I did. I trace my recovery to the day I discovered that there is a living God, who hears and answers prayers.

Before being hospitalized, I had graduated from the University of Texas at Austin, with highest honors, Phi Beta Kappa, and with special honors in my major field -- psychology, ironically enough. I had (and I assume I still have) a Mensa-level IQ. Unfortunately, I was also a drug abuser, and had unhealthy relationships with both my parents.

Where God was concerned, I was agnostic. There might be a God, but I was skeptical. I was unconvinced by the philosophical proofs of God's existence, and had neither seen, heard, nor felt any convincing evidence of God's existence in my life. I could readily see how the concept of God functioned as a useful myth, which served to keep simple-minded people honest. However, I saw no more reason to believe in the actual existence of a God than to believe in Santa Claus. And based in part on my experience with Santa Claus, I was not willing to blindly believe in God.

I was an earnest seeker, however. Raised in the Methodist church, and encouraged by my parents to think, doubt, and question, I had visited numerous churches in my teen years, seeking a place where my questions could be answered. I found only that I thought about these things much more deeply than anyone else in the little town where I grew up. In my college years, I continued to explore, keeping an open mind, and finding a little here and a little there, but nothing that settled the question.

Landing in the hospital changed everything in my life. Up until I was hospitalized for psychosis and declared officially insane, as far as I could tell, I was on track to be President of the United States. The undeniable fact of my illness, however, woke me up to the fact that I was far off track. It left me questioning even the most basic thoughts and perceptions of my mind. I had to fundamentally re-examine everything, and my own mind was my worst enemy. Since medical science had no cure, it was basically up to me to recover, yet I could not trust myself. No one can pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, yet that was my task. Either that, or resign myself to a long life in the living hell I found myself in. Or commit suicide -- an option I soon tried.

After a short time in the hospital, I was released to outpatient care -- which meant I had to visit a psychiatrist once a week -- and I went home to live with my parents. Their home was a toxic environment for me, but I had no realistic alternative, until I found a job -- not an easy undertaking for a mental patient.

Searching for bedrock on which to rebuild my mind, I turned to the Bible. It only confused me further, as I watched God stand by and let Jacob's theft of Esau's birthright stand, and apparently go not only unpunished, but actually rewarded – or so it seemed to me at the time.

After a few weeks in my parents' home, working a series of temporary jobs as a farm hand, I decided to end my life. Late one night, I left a brief note, took a very sharp-looking knife from the kitchen, and went out the back door. My parents' house was in the country, reachable only by a dirt road that ran a quarter of a mile to the nearest paved road. The night was hot and humid, and deathly still. There wasn't the slightest breeze. The air was like a warm blanket on a hot night -- unwelcome, oppressive, and inescapable. I walked down the dirt road, dressed only in my underwear. The dog came with me.

I sat down on a low wall over a drainage ditch. I looked up at the formless clouds that covered the entire sky, and asked any God that might exist to have mercy on me. I received no reassurance. Then with my right hand, I dragged the knife across my left wrist.

Nothing happened. No cut, not even a scratch. I tried again, two or three times, before I realized that the knife that looked so sharp was scarcely sharper than a butter knife. If I really wanted to kill myself, I would have to bash my wrists with the point of the knife. I was so depressed, I didn't have the energy for that, nor was I sure that I could burst the vein, or accomplish anything other than mangling my wrist. I didn't hate myself enough to try ending my life that way. So I gave up the attempt.

I was a failure at suicide. What an odd feeling that was. As I walked back up the dirt road toward the house, I realized that if I had succeeded in killing myself, it might not have solved my problem. In fact, for all I knew, I might have simply locked myself into the problem forever. I made some crucial decisions then. I decided that I never wanted to be tempted to suicide again, and therefore I would embrace life and all that is life-giving. This is probably the best decision I ever made in my life. Most people make this decision naturally and subconsciously. It doesn't occur to them to live any other way. I made this decision consciously and deliberately, after deliberately throwing my life away for 20 years.

I started naming off in my mind all the things that are life-giving -- laughter, song, beauty, friends, children, and most of all, love. I considered love to be the most life-giving thing there is, and the more I thought about it, the more convinced of this I became.

Not long after this, at the urging of my psychiatrist, I found a job. I had worked my way through college as a clerk in a bank in downtown Houston. In my condition, with a history of mental illness, and a bachelor's degree that qualified me for little other than graduate school, I decided to see if I could get my old job back. Fortunately, I was well remembered by the managers and they were indeed hiring. I lied on the job application, saying I had no history of mental illness. Sue me. I was hired.

I immediately moved out of my parents' house. Although I was moving in a better direction now, I was still extremely fragile and very depressed. I was still abusing drugs, and most of the issues that had led to my psychosis were still unresolved.

One lonely night, I called an old girlfriend named Cindy. She was not home. Her mother answered the phone. I had met her mother only once, briefly. We barely knew each other. To this day I don't even know her first name. I know only that in the autumn of 1976, she was Mrs. Stuart Robbins of Conroe, Texas.

The conversation was friendly and low-key. Mrs. Robbins advised me to forget about Cindy, and move on with my life. Then the conversation turned to God, I don't recall how. But Mrs. Robbins was respectful of my feelings, and thought perhaps I would be uncomfortable talking about that topic. I said cheerfully, "I don't mind talking about religion."

She said, "I'm not talking about religion. I'm talking about a relationship."

I said something really intelligent, like, "Huh? A relationship?"

Mrs. Robbins patiently explained that since God is alive, anyone can have a relationship with God, just as one can have a relationship with a friend, or a pet, or a houseplant. You have a relationship with a friend by talking and doing things together. With a pet, by feeding, petting, and so on. With a houseplant by providing the right amount of sunlight and water, watching carefully for signs of health, and enjoying the beauty and enriched breathing air the plant provides. And you can have a relationship with God through prayer. She suggested that if I wanted to know whether God exists or not, I should just pray, and ask "Him" to manifest "Himself." (I use the masculine pronouns to refer to God, not because I believe God is male, but because this is standard English usage for a noun of undetermined gender, and because it is the traditional usage of the Bible.)

This was a totally novel idea to me, and I decided to give it a try. If there was a God, I could certainly use "His" help. And if there was an answer to my prayers, then God must not only exist, but live, and care.

Chapter II. The Great Experiment

Numerous problems presented themselves. If I prayed for something, and it came to pass, how could I know whether it was God answering my prayer, or whether it was caused by something else? Well, fortunately, I had been trained in exactly this type of critical thinking in college, and I was very good at it. I knew how to design research methods so as to eliminate what scientists call "confounding variables."

On the other hand, if I prayed for something, and it didn't come to pass, did that necessarily mean God was not answering my prayers? Or could it mean that the answer was simply, "No"? I concluded that a non-answered prayer would not be conclusive proof in either direction. But an answered prayer would be conclusive proof of God's existence and love.

The proposition that "God answers prayer" is a testable hypothesis. I wanted to avoid the "alpha error" of believing God exists when "He" doesn't. If I put my trust in a non-existent God, I would end up taking risks that might prove foolish or even fatal. But I also wanted to avoid the "beta error" of concluding that God does not exist when in reality "He" does. If I made that mistake, I would miss out on a tremendous resource, at the very least. So I applied all my intelligence, all my university training, and all my intellectual honesty, to the task of determining whether anyone was answering my prayers.

The first question was what to pray for. I prayed for an angel to appear on the ceiling, for an audible voice, for objects in the room to be moved from one place to another. None of this happened. This did not prove God's non-existence, of course, but it led to the all-important question, "Why didn't God answer that prayer?" Which led to the further question, "Why should "He"?"

If God exists, then God surely has more important things to do than simply prove "His" existence to me. So there is no particular reason God should answer the kinds of prayers I had been praying.

In fact, God may perhaps prefer not to prove "Himself" at all, but instead to leave a gap that can be bridged only by faith. Like a Cossack leaping over a chasm (anybody seen "Taurus Bulba"?), the question becomes, just how wide a gap does God expect me to jump? I had no way of knowing, but reasoned that if God knows my mind well enough to hear my prayers -- which I did not speak out loud -- then surely God knew the gap would have to be a lot narrower, for me to get across it without plunging to my death! At the same time, if God is a God of Truth, then "He" must not object to my trying my best to narrow the gap by inquiring as scientifically as possible. In fact, "He" must welcome and honor my earnest desire to know. And "He" would not hide from me, except as necessary to ensure faith. (Jesus said, “Seek, and ye shall find.”) Thus, my inquiries might never "prove" anything. The best I could expect would be to reduce the uncertainty.

But that's fine! Science is not about proving anything. It is about reducing uncertainty. Science seeks to establish heavy odds that the tested hypothesis is true. In experimental psychology, if the odds can be ascertained to be 19 to 1 in favor of a conclusion, then that conclusion is considered true, even though there is still a 5 percent chance it is false.

If I were asking God for idle proofs of "His" existence, there was no reason to think that any would be forthcoming. But what kind of prayer could God wish to answer? If God is love -- as nearly everyone says -- then a prayer motivated by love would be consistent with God's will and nature. And if God answered a prayer motivated by love, there would be the added attraction of a benefit to someone I care for, in addition to myself. In fact, if the prayer were not motivated by love, there would be no reason why God should answer it. If the prayer was motivated by love, there was at least a chance.

So my first criterion for testing the hypothesis that God exists is:

(1) Pray for something that would be of benefit to someone besides myself.

In order to eliminate confounding variables, two other criteria presented themselves pretty obviously:

(2) Pray for something that, in my judgement, is unlikely to happen in the normal course of events.

If I pray for something I consider likely to happen on its own, and the thing comes to pass, would I consider it an answered prayer? Not if I have any intellectual honesty at all! Instead, I would say it was going to happen anyway. But if I considered it unlikely to happen, and it came to pass after I prayed for it, would it prove that God had answered my prayer? No, but it would substantially increase the likelihood. It would be strong evidence.

(3) Pray for something that is not within my control.

If I can do something myself, why pray for God to do it? In the first place, if God exists, "He" is certainly not my valet, or someone for me to send to do the things I am not willing to do for myself. If we extend this logic, then I should do everything I can do, to influence matters toward the accomplishment of that for which I pray. Otherwise I am asking God to do something that I can do myself. It is vanity at best, and sin at worst, to pray for God to do something, then neglect to do my utmost to help bring it about.

But if I can be an agent assisting God to answer prayers, then so can everybody else. In fact, as I thought about this principle in more depth, I realized that anyone who treats me in a loving way is an agent of God in my life. So if I wanted my prayers answered, I must not only do my own part, but also put others in a position to be God's agents in answering the prayer also. The God of Love answers prayers by pulling strings. Heart strings.

(This reminds me of a good story. Once there was a man whose neighborhood was flooding, due to torrential rains. As the waters rose, he moved to the second story of his house, and a woman came by in a rowboat, offering him a ride to safety. The man refused, saying that he trusted God to save him. The waters continued to rise, and the man climbed up on his roof. A speedboat came by, and the pilot offered him a ride to safety. Again he refused, for the same reason: God would save him. The waters continued to rise. The man climbed to the top of his chimney, and as the waters lapped about his shoe soles, a helicopter flew over, and the pilot lowered a ladder and shouted an offer to take the man to safety. Again he refused, for the same reason. The waters kept rising. He drowned.

If Jesus had told this story, he might have ended it right there, as a challenge for our understanding. For those of you who don't yet understand, here is the punch line: Upon reaching the Pearly Gates, the drowned man angrily demanded of St. Peter to know why God had not saved him, particularly in light of his great faith. St. Peter was taken aback, then hurriedly flipped through his book. "There must be some mistake," Peter said. "According to this, we sent a rowboat, a speedboat, and a helicopter.")

I also decided that if I wanted to give God the maximum chance of answering a prayer, I should pray in accordance with the teachings of the spiritual masters. Since the only spiritual master whose teaching I knew was Jesus, I chose his teachings to follow.

(4) Pray forgiving someone for something I am holding against them.

Jesus taught that if we want our prayers to be answered, we must forgive our brothers and sisters from our hearts. I have learned a lot about forgiveness over the years, enough to know that it rarely happens like the snap of a finger or like the flip of a switch. Far more often, it is a lengthy process. Yet the decision to forgive is the beginning of that process, and thus the decision to forgive is, in and of itself, an act of forgiveness. So I would first think of something I was angry about, and choose to forgive that, so that my prayer would have the maximum chance of being answered.

(5) Pray believing it has already been done.

Jesus taught that if we pray believing that it has already been done, it will be done for us as we ask. But for me, this presented a Catch-22. I was praying in order to discover whether God exists or not. Therefore, in all intellectual honesty, I could not say I believed it would happen as I asked, much less that it was already done. If God exists, "He" would not be fooled by any such false claim.

In all intellectual honesty, the most I could do was suspend my disbelief. If God exists, and is a God of Justice, and a God of Truth, this would have to be good enough, because it was the most I could do. And if God would answer the prayers of such a man as me, then apparently faith is not an all-or-nothing proposition after all, but a matter of giving God the benefit of the doubt.

We all know how to suspend disbelief. We do it every day, when we watch fiction on our TV or movie screen, or read a fictional story. We know rationally that the story is not really happening, and never did, and never will. But we suspend our disbelief so that we can experience fully all that the story has to say to us.

In the same way, an agnostic seeking to know the truth about God can suspend his or her disbelief, in order to see what difference it makes. Could a God of Justice and Truth ask for more?

Chapter 3: The Results

Following these 5 criteria conscientiously, I prayed. Unfortunately, I can't now remember the first thing I prayed for, nor the second, nor the third. What I do remember is that, in each instance, something odd eventually happened. In every case, it was something subtle, that would have been easy to miss had I not been watching closely, with suspended disbelief. Each time, I would ask myself, "Was that God answering my prayer?"

Examining the question carefully, I had to admit it could have been an answered prayer, but I could never say for sure that it was. It might have been a coincidence, a quirky random roll of the cosmic dice. So I would repeat the experiment, with a different prayer request this time, following the same 5 criteria.

Eventually, after about 5 of these occurences, the Coincidence explanation began to look pretty shaky. Yet although the evidence was starting to weigh in favor of the conclusion that God exists and answers prayers, still I was not convinced.

I do remember the two prayers I tried at this time, which finally put me over the top.

In late May of 1978, my then-wife Kathy was pregnant with our first child. We lived in an upstairs apartment in Austin, Texas. We had located a small house for rent, and decided to move, since we didn't want to be climbing up and down stairs with an infant. Because I was working full-time and she was staying home, most of the work of packing for the move fell to Kathy. In Texas, the summer heat usually sets in by early-to-mid May, and in 1978 it was in full swing when our central air conditioning unit broke down, on a Sunday.

Kathy had worked for the apartment complex as a manager, and knew that broken air conditioners were not the highest repair priority, by any means. I grew concerned for Kathy's health, trying to pack in that heat, while 7 months pregnant. I sent up a prayer, telling God that if "He" would get the air conditioner fixed by Wednesday, I would call "Him" Lord.

As we saw in the discussion of criterion (3) above, I was responsible for doing all I could, even though it was out of my control, and for putting others in a position to be God's agents also. So I called the office, even though it was Sunday and there was nobody there, and left a message on the answering machine, reporting the problem and mentioning that my wife was pregnant.

A short time later, that same afternoon, we got a call. It was the maintenance supervisor of the complex. He said he would be right over to take a look at the problem. When he got to our apartment, he mentioned it was his day off, and he was driving past the complex, and something just told him to stop into the office and check his messages. When he learned that there was a pregnant woman involved, he decided to act immediately.

He set about diagnosing the problem, and in a few minutes, he was certain that he knew what to do. However, he could not fix it that day, because he did not have the needed part. He said he would send his assistant over the next day, to install the replacement part.

First thing Monday morning, a young man knocked on our door. He was the assistant, and he had the part with him. In about 15 minutes' time, he had done the repair work, and the air conditioner was back in operation.

You have no idea how impressed I was. I had prayed for the air conditioner to be fixed by Wednesday, and considered that unlikely. Instead, it had been fixed in the shortest time humanly possible.

The evidence now seemed to be heavily in favor of the proposition that God does indeed answer prayers, and I was starting to really admire the God my suspended disbelief was allowing me to see. But I had lingering doubts. I still was not totally convinced.

Then came the incident that put me over the top.

My son Aaron was born in July, 1978, barely a month after we moved out of the apartment. He was the first grandchild born on either side of the family, and all the relatives wanted to come see him, including my father's parents, whom I loved very much. However, before they made the 4-hour trip to Austin from East Texas, my grandfather caught a cold, and at his advanced age (77), the cold developed into emphysema. He was hospitalized.

Since he could not come to see Aaron, we decided to take Aaron to see him. When we arrived, my grandfather was in poor condition. For long periods of time, his lungs were so filled with fluid that he would have to struggle for every breath. He constantly felt on the verge of drowning, and he grew weary of the struggle. Reports from those who had visited him indicated he was losing his will to live.

So I prayed. This time, I prayed that my son would smile at my grandfather, and my grandfather would recover the will to live.

This certainly fit the criteria. I could not control it, and it was unlikely. By this time, my son was 3 months old. In all that time, we had seen him smile only once, at the most. For Aaron to smile was a very rare event. He didn't cry much either. He was mostly a pretty placid child. (If Kathy or I had known how to make him smile, he would have smiled a great deal more by this time!)

We went to visit my grandfather at the hospital. My grandmother and my parents were with us. My grandmother carried Aaron into the room. She tipped Aaron over sideways to show him to my grandfather. Aaron didn't like being held like that, and acted as if he were about to cry. So my grandmother quickly snatched him up, and carried him over to the window to calm him. He didn't cry. There was an awkward pause, and after staying for just a few minutes, we all left.

My prayer had not been answered. As I pondered this, I realized the story was not over yet. We would be staying in town for two more nights, and there would be another opportunity to visit my grandfather.

The next day, we all visited the hospital again. Before Kathy and I had decided to make the trip to East Texas, my grandfather had complained, "By the time I get to see him, he'll be wearing a bow tie." So my wife and my grandmother conspired to make him a little black bow tie, and pinned it to his blue corduroy outfit. We all went together again, including my parents. This time, I carried Aaron into the room.

My grandfather was sitting up in his bed, which was cranked up into a sitting position. I sat on the edge of the bed, with Aaron sitting in my lap, facing my grandfather. Their eyes locked on each other, and they both started grinning immediately. My son continued to smile non-stop for 45 minutes. Everybody wanted pictures of the baby with his ancestors, so a series of pictures was taken. First with everybody, then with just the men, then with just the women, and so on. In every one of those pictures, my son is smiling a fat little baby smile.

That did it for me. I was now convinced that God answers prayers, that "He" is intimately aware of the details of our lives., and that "He" is a God of tender mercy and healing power.

Walking in a daily relationship with this God, I gradually healed from mental illness, so that now I am as sane as the average person (and I know, that’s not saying much!) I have been blessed with a succession of good jobs, getting better and better. After 19 years of cleaning me up, God put me to work in this ministry, putting my musical gifts in service to him. And he has sustained me in that work for 25 years now. My son is grown and has 3 kids of his own.

By the way, my grandfather left the hospital a short time later, and although his recovery was slow, he eventually got over his emphysema. He lived 17 more years, dying at the age of 94, from natural causes.

What God has done for me, "He" will surely do for you.

The calm before the storm

And [Pilate] replied to them, "Do you wish me to set free for you the king of the Jews?" For he was aware that it was because of envy that the chief priests had delivered him up.
(Mark 15:9-10)

Wow. The religious hierarchy wanted to get rid of Jesus, because the people were more inclined to follow him than to follow them. The longer Jesus lived, the more of their power, wealth, influence, and privilege they would lose. And they were more than willing to see to it that Jesus died, in order to protect their nests.
Why did the people prefer Jesus? Was it because of the loving quality of his teachings and persona? Was it because of his healing power? Was it because they saw him as a Provider, after being fed in the wilderness? Was it because they were sick and tired of the burdensome, nitpicky rules imposed by the law, and the judgmental and superior attitude of those who enforced that law? Was it some combination or perhaps all of these things?
And if Jesus had risen to prominence instead of being executed, what did the priest and scribes think would happen to them? Were they unable to conceive of becoming his followers? Were they just that proud, arrogant, and greedy that they would not accept any lessening of their rank and prestige and income?
God knew that it would never come to that. He knew that the authorities would kill Jesus, and He knew the manner of death he would have to face and undergo, and He judged it best, and judged Jesus strong enough. He judged it a price worth paying, in order to begin destroying the power of Satan to rule mankind by the fear of death.
For it is by the fear of pain and suffering and death that all the kings of this world secure the obedience of the people.
If Jesus, by submitting to scourgining, crucifixion, and death, emerged victorious through his resurrection from the dead, then we would all see that death is not the end. And if death is not the end, then we need not avoid death at all costs, and then the powers that be will have to find some other way of controlling us, if they can. And that's how Jesus became King above all kings and Lord above all lords.
And it is because Jesus was willing to pay that enormous price for us, that I gladly and willingly pay him my highest allegiance. Even above family and friends. Even above political party. Even above country. Even above church. All these are imperfect earthly vessels, capable of blocking God's will. Let God's will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.
-- Philip Eric Jones

We are at that time of year when we celebrate Jesus' first (as far as we know) visit to earth. He came as a baby, and grew up as one of us.
But his own teachings strongly hint that his next visit will be different. He says that if someone tells us that the Messiah is here on earth, in this place or that (wilderness or inner rooms), not to believe them (Matthew 24: 23-26), and that false Messiahs will lead astray, if possible, even the elect, those whom God has chosen as His agents on earth.
Numerous scripture passages hint that Jesus will come suddenly, from the sky, rather than gradually and quietly, from the womb. "As the lightning comes from the east and shines even unto the west, so will be the coming of the Son of Man in his day." And after a cloud carried Jesus away after his resurrection (Acts 1:9), two men in white robes (angels?) said, "This Jesus . . . will return in the same way in which you saw him go into heaven." Before the Sanhedrin, Jesus said they would see him "coming in clouds." (Mark 14:62, Matthew 26:64) And unexpectedly, like a thief in the night.
Jesus called himself "Son of Man." That's a curious turn of phrase. Not Son of God, but Son of Man. Man is just one of a myriad species on earth. Does this mean that perhaps there has been or will be a divine visit to earth in the form of some other intelligent species? A Son of Dolphin or a Son of Whale? And what about intelligent life on other planets (which almost certainly exists)? Has The Word visited some of them, and lived in their bodies? Is it possible he will return to earth as one of them?
It's all speculation, but it fits the scriptures, and the known facts about the universe. That's why one of my favorite Christmas carols is "Every Star Shall Sing a Carol," by Sydney Carter. The words say, in part,
"Who can tell what other cradle,
High above the Milky Way,
Still may rock the King of Heaven,
On another Christmas Day?
Who can count how many crosses,
Still to come or long ago,
Crucify the King of Heaven?
Holy is the name I know.
Who can tell what other body
He will hallow for his own?
I will praise the son of Mary,
Brother of my blood and bone."
No one has yet done a definitive recording of this great off-the-beaten-path Christmas carol. Here is the best one I could find:
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Enjoy, and ponder the greatness of the limitless God of Eternity.
Merry Christmas!
--Philip Eric Jones
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