I just got an email reminding me that I am STILL Number 1 on the Pop Charts in my region here where I live in Southern California. Still!!!!!! THANKS TO ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need you to know you are motivating me through a depressive episode right now. I am not even making money on this. This is just pure plays and shares thanks to you!!!! The little things in life matter to me. This might be little to others but this is epic to me. This is a 12 year battle. Out of all of the music promotion sites I am on, this has been the most actively supportive. I thank you so much because it happened on it's own and out of nowhere. Thank you for the love. Thank you for making me feel like I'm Number One. I also cashed a royalty check recently thanks to digital sales of my debut album which is 12 years old now!!!!!! I think I have some of you to thank for those sales recently. Hello to my new subscribers!!!!!! Let me know how you found out about me. Let's also do a roll call!!! Where are all of you from (old and new)? As for me, I'm in Southern California. It will help to know where you are all located so that when I plan my open mic tour, I will know where to go so I can thank you in person! Now for the uncomfortable part. What I have to say next is not in any way to turn you all away from me. You are not at all obligated. I just feel that I have to humble myself and see what good can come of this next request. As you may or may not know depending on when you subscribed, one of my nephews passed away in January. I have no kids of my own and my nieces and nephews are the highest treasures in my life. I absolutely LOVE being an auntie and I honestly feel like I am the luckiest auntie in the world. (Let's not fight. I am just expressing my heart). So when TJ passed away from cancer at the age of 17 it was horrible. I am still struggling with it and I went on medical leave and checked into an intensive outpatient therapy program to deal with the grief, depression and anxiety (panic attacks). It was the best thing I did. I since completed the program and it has been a bumpy ride trying to get back on my feet and back into the workforce. I am pounding the pavement because I need to pay bills and get going on releasing new music. As I have this free time all I want is to be rehearsing and recording and releasing music. All I want is to live my music. I will hustle and work a couple J.O.B.s. and at the same time I am feeling anxious about it. I told myself that moving forward, I am living my life by my design. Sure that seems grandiose and at the same time, losing my nephew gave me such a new perspective. There is more to life and I have no clue when my time will run out. So I'm feeling the pressure while I'm waiting for a job offer and time is wasting and I have no money to invest into my purpose in life. With your support, I am still determined to be successful independently. Screw the greedy middle men for now. So, here is where you may come in. I have a very very very hard time asking for any kind of financial assistance. However, you are the first and only set of fans so far who have actually demanded to be able to BUY my music. Perhaps I finally have my true family. My desire is to continue this organic growth and make my desire of releasing a new single every month a reality. There are only 5 months left of this year and I want to make TJ proud -- and I want to live my most epic life. Maybe it means suffocating my pride and opening my mouth and asking if you would donate so that I can afford to go in the studio while I am not working right now. Consider it our own crowdfunding on a smaller, more intimate scale. You can donate anonymously or you can provide your name and those who do, will get to have input into each singe depending on how much you donate. Granted, I have the final say however, we will have open discussion brainstorming sessions and maybe you will help me get past my writer's block. Your input could range from the song title for the next single, the concept, or even going beyond the single and contributing to the music video. And if you donate a certain amount the cost of the single will already be included. So simply reply to this or shoot me a private email and say "Yes, I want to donate!" or "No, but I still want to remain a subscriber." You do not have to unsubscribe if you are against donating, I still want you around and I still love you. Donations would be via my paypal link (just excuse the previous business name but there is a photo of me with long black and purple hair for confirmation that it is me -- my hair style changes). I can't wait to get back in the studio and bring you fresh new music so I can have content for the tour which I hope to embark on by the end of summer 2017. Let's talk about it! MUSIC IS MY GOD Natalie Womack indysoulrecords@gmail.com